I’m so lucky that when it’s quitting time at work I have so many beautiful streets to walk through on my way to the bus. The arrival of spring has me feeling all cheerful all of a sudden.

In spite of that I’ve been feeling really stressed and fatigued. I’ve been crashing around 5 or 6 most days and feeling all sore and achey. Maybe it’s a flu. I don’t know. Either that or I’ve overextended myself again. That’s always possible too.

Being underemployed is stressful. If I had a full time job I would have maybe three different major things to keep track of in my life. But being chronically underemployed, I have so many little things competing for my time and attention. Even when I’m doing a good job I never manage to lose the sense that I’m on the edge of absolute failure. No matter what I do, something always gets pushed to the margins. Balls get dropped and there’s nothing I can do about it.

Two of my roommates are away and the cat has gone insane. She is the most clingy and emotionally needy cat I have ever encountered. She meows incessantly and throws herself at me all the time, tripping me while I walk and getting in my way while I’m trying to type. She rubs all over my face and makes my eyes water and itch. I don’t know what’s in her food these days but she really stinks and the last thing I need right now is a cat that smells like shit rubbing all over my face.

While not all over me, she engages in other attention-seeking behaviour, chewing on library books, destroying my plants and knocking things off my bookshelves. More than once this week I have contemplated throttling her.

That sounds terrible, I know, but I find if anything can cause me to go off the deep end it’s the accumulated pressure of persistent trivial and minor irritations. Luckily it doesn’t happen often. Her owner will hopefully be home soon and the cat will be back to normal. In the meantime, I plan on spending a few nights away from home to get away from her. She’s that bad.

The blossoms aren’t out near my house yet. It’s going to take them a while to move east.

One Response to “Spring”

  1. A Strange Boy Says:

    Even though I’m working full time, I can identify with the whole “underemployed” feeling.

    I have been so sick of winter (the east coast got hit with snowstorms every three days it seemed) that now that the snow is melting it’s definitely helping my mood.

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