Long nights, early mornings

We picked my sister up from a party the other night. She’s a fun drunk because she’s perky and chatty and repeats herself a lot. Before long you’re finishing her sentences for her and she doesn’t notice. She got sick a couple times and forgot about it so it’s probably better that she didn’t try taking transit home alone.

I haven’t been sleeping well lately. It’s annoying because the time I go to bed has no bearing on whether or not I’ll get a full night’s sleep.

It’s not the same kind of insomnia as usual, where my head is everywhere thinking about everything. It’s a new kind where I just lay there, vacant as nothing happens. The night takes a long time to pass. In the morning I’m awake but tired and unable to sleep in.

This wouldn’t be an issue if I felt fine all the time but apparently I’m no longer invincible. I feel lethargic and dull and all I can do is hope that my mood doesn’t go too south and doesn’t stay there for too long. It’s tidal. It’s a sea change and all I can do is ride it out.

Oh well. At least I have a lot of things to keep myself busy.

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